It’s been a long time since I’ve lost my faith in friends and people in general. Nevertheless, I never cease to be hurt by the actions or words of persons that, realistically speaking, shouldn’t have any importance to me. For that, I admit, I’m stupid as fuck. Also, the fact that I forgive certain people too many times is also a sign of stupidity and weakness.
Maybe it’s just me, there’s a problem with me, I’m socially handicapped or something, but from my experience and from what I’ve seen at those around me, most people don’t deserve more than, lets say, a work colleague. The people around us, the people in our lists and agendas…. Most of them want something, they have a reduced emotional capacity, thus any emotional implication with them is a loss… a loss of time, energy, life, emotion, faith, kindness.
But like I said, maybe it’s just me, maybe my perception is fucked up, but I wouldn’t bet that those who we call “friends” or “lovers” can’t fuck us up. They can, and most of them, will. Many of them already did and we forgave them.
Yes, I’m aware that some of y’all have lovely relationships that had lasted for years, and I envy you and congratulate you.
I’m just saying what I’m seeing in my life and around me… maybe I’m wrong.. I don’t know.
